A Different Christmas

Christmas this is going to be very different from those over the past 10 years.

Different....very very different.

This year, we will not have a visit to Santa, you see, they no longer believe.

I am much more upset about this than they are.

No longer will I see their faces light up when they meet that special man.

No longer will they suddenly turn shy and go very quite, mouths open with an eye popping gaze.

No longer will I creep around on Christmas Eve, collecting all the presents from their hiding places.

To be honest, they didn't really believe last year, but we visited Santa and went through the motions. I think it was more to keep me happy, rather than them.

They are growing up, growing up way too fast.

It honestly scares me.

Right Now.....

 

Right now I am constantly going over and over in my head which path to choose.  From here there are a couple of ways I can move my life forward.  I really am being pulled in different directions and I honestly don't know which path to follow.  All I know is that the current direction can't continue.  Why does life throw these dilemmas at us?

 

 

If i choose the wrong path, life for my family could suffer.  We need to be happy and I so need it to be a happier life soon. But how do I bring what I hope for to fruition?  What if i make the wrong choice?

 

Right now the only thing I know for sure is that tonight I will once again go to sleep tonight worrying about what is on the horizon for us....hoping and praying I make the right choice.

This post is inspired by this inspirational blogger.